Far from everyone I know, I silently blog my "evil" side here. I do not want people to see when I am being only too weak. I do not want people to see me wounded. Is it the "perfect Christian" notion that I have that underscores my avoidance of giving them a glimpse of the can of worms in my gut?

I rationalized earlier that maybe I just don't want people to "stumble" on my account. That seems valid. But I wonder if, there's a bit of rationalization and empty self-aggrandizement turned from self-pity somewhere there.

BUT I guess I really just shouldn't second-guess my motives and live life the way it should be lived: without having to analyze every little thing that happens. :p